Praying for Stellan

Baby Girl,
Our dear sweet (blog)friend Stellan turns one year old the day before you do. And he is having another terrible time with his heart rhythms and had to be rushed to the hospital. It is yet another reminder of how thankful we are that you have been so perfectly healthy. We are going to pray that this turns around as quickly as it started, and that sweet Stellan will be home soon to have his own cupcakes and presents.

It is still completely unbelievable to me that just over one year ago, I was just a wife waiting for the biggest change of my entire life. And now I feel like you are the ingredient that changed the whole recipe and made everything better!

Last night, you woke up around 9:30 crying. I mean, really crying where Daddy and I knew something was weird. When I went in to get you, you were sitting up and just wouldn't stop. So I thought maybe you just wanted Daddy (you were only interested in him and followed him around all evening), so we went and snuggled up in bed all three of us. After a few minutes of Daddy holding you and still crying, you reached out to me and wanted to snuggle. We laid down and I sang "You are My Sunshine" and rubbed your back.... And you were out. You looked like a little angel all curled up next to me. You almost never want to cuddle, so I decided to savor it. We watched the last few minutes of "The Office" and I laughed silently, and then Daddy firmly suggested that I take you back to your own bed so that I could sleep comfortably.

I think you just wanted to give me a happy moment to still think of you as my tiny baby, not the one-year-old that you soon will be. Thanks for giving Mommy a good snuggle!