Mommy has sure had a hard time getting in gear in 2011. I think ending the year with such a hard experience somehow left me stuck there. I was trying to explain it to your daddy the other day and all I could say was that I feel.... weird. It's like I have a million things I know I should be doing, things that would be good choices or healthy things to do, but I just feel apathetic. I have books I want to read, scriptures I want to memorize, projects to keep me busy, but instead I just want to be mopey. And unfortunately, it seems that one bad decision leads to another. When I haven't been exercising, I feel lazy and tend to eat more junk food. I procrastinate doing chores around the house and I watch crappy stuff on TV.
Why is it that I know what I want to spend my time on, but suddenly I look back and have wasted hours doing something totally different? (I can't even seem to focus and finish this post!)
I guess what I am trying to say is that one good decision tends to lead to another as well. But I think sometimes I need a little push to get started. My new elliptical got exiled to the garage so we could take it apart and make sure everything was OK on the inside, and now I just need to get motivated and bring it back inside. I need to start drinking more water and eating less candy, and it will probably make me feel better and more like exercising. I need to start taking my thoughts captive to Christ and focus on encouragement and truth.
So I thought I would properly say goodbye to 2010 and make the decision to move forward with positive intentions. To make each day less overwhelming, I want to wake up and be confident that I can accomplish all the tasks that I set out to do. To know that God has a purpose for me being where I am, and that through him I can do all things without feeling lost.
Here are the things I want to remember positively from 2010:
Best movie: Inception
Favorite song: The House that Built Me
Best album: Miranda Lambert's "Revolution"
Best book I read: The Help
Favorite family memory: Having everyone together for a family portrait in June
Cutest moment by Cameron: Learning to read along with her favorite books
Best trip: Vegas and the NFR!
Best change for Mommy: No more sitting in traffic!
Best change for Daddy: New job coaching football and teaching science.
Most amazing thing of the year: Watching you go from this....
to this!
This year you learned to talk, to run, to make jokes, to sing and dance, and how to have manners. You spent the entire year in daycare and did great with all the changes and new faces. You turned two, learned what a birthday is, and truly enjoyed Christmas. You have grown into a smart, outgoing and wonderful girl.
You are half (Daddy makes the other half) of every good and happy thing that I want to take with me from 2010. And you are the two things that I know I could never face 2011 without.
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